The Truth

Hi there everyone

Is anyone reading this? I wonder....

Well, it's been over two years since I've posted. What happened you ask? Well, on May 15, 2008 I woke up and sat down at my desk, ready once again to take on the world. I'd been having a harder and harder time staying motivated, really miserable actually. I'd sit down at my desk and before you knew it, it was 8 hours later and I had gotten squat done. So this particular day I had once again decided to redouble my efforts. I opened my computer and got to work. All of a sudden it was lunch time and I had spent all morning staring at my computer screen. I went to the bathroom full of fear and anxiety. I looked in the mirror and something inside me snapped. I simply couldn't lie to myself anymore. My work was making me miserable and it had been for a long time.

So I quit. I broke the promise I had made to god on September 11th, 2001 (to spend the rest of my life making the world a better place, I mean, really, doing absolutely everything within my powers to make sure nothing like that ever happened again).

When I walked outside it was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I felt wonderful. Now, a lot has happened since then and I've struggled to come to terms with my decisions in a variety of ways. I'm now an electrician and work a normal job and live a normal (and stable) life. I'm in love and am engaged. Life is good. Things are good. But, I still have mixed feelings about 'giving up' on my 'work'. So, I've decided (in a very relaxed and loose way) to return to what I once considered my life's work. The first thing I'm going to do is share my lessons learned from my failure. I figure they might be valuable to other aspiring activist filmmakers / change agents. I've done a lot of soul searching around where I went wrong and how my most basic of intentions sabotaged me before I ever began. After that, I hope to start creating again. Who knows, maybe Fixing Capitalism in one form or another will still one day come into existence.

Anyhoo, more on all that next time. Peace and love to all!

Adam Cormier

If you look at the date of my last blog it's actually after the date I quit. Well, I was enrolled in a government program to start a business and I had to keep up apperances... it's not a total lie. It took me a while to fully let go and decide to switch careers. (I do enjoy being an electrician btw, certainly much more then I ever enjoyed film and television).